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Wow, it's been a long time. I think I just lost the writing bug. Anyway, I'm basically just more content. Finished what I had to finish, ended what I needed to end. Haha. Tons of funny things happened. I stepped out of my normal boundaries and realized there are guys who can actually beat a girl at whining. Okay, that didn't go together but whatever. :) I think these color tests are highly accurate because it usually just hits the mark. I took this test before and I got a different result matching what I was feeling then. I dunno, it's weird. Haha. Current:  | Cheska took a test because she's bored!
"Needs a change in her circumstances or in her relationship.." Click here to read the rest of the results. | Past:theanism.livejournal.com/4566.html- Mood:ditzy
 - Music:slip out - beck
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I haven't felt like writing for months now. It's not like tons of things happen to me, anyway. Well tonight, I'm finally trying to make a decent post. I just think this is one of the cutest dogs I've seen recently. ( I see a lot of dogs so it's unfair to say it's the cutest ever.) This picture was taken by Mau. Apparently, while he was taking some sunrise pictures with his DSLR, this dog came by. Luckily, he had the chance to take its picture. ( He looks like he's jogging haha.) I don't know if I'm weird or if it's just me thinking he's cute, but when I showed it to other people they all said he looks scary. He is SO not scary-looking. Kaaaah. I really, really love cute animals. Dogs in pacticular. :] By the way, last Saturday while walking home from one of the usual 7-11 binge trips around 2am, I chanced upon 4 kittens meowing for dear life. I couldn't get one because it would be unfair to separate one from his/her siblings. I ended up thinking about them all morning. I think they were the silver/black tabby type. Sigh. I've never had cats before since my mom and brother are allergic to them, but I've always wanted to try it atleast once. Probably leave it in one of my friends' houses so my mom doesn't freak out. Haha. Reminder:Tell Mau I used his shot. - Mood:impressed
 - Music:tomorrow - silverchair
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Yes! I just finished the last of my important papers ( not doing the other 2 because they're not gonna be missed), and now I'm free. All I have to do is pack for a trip, then I'm good to go. I really want to go to Taiwan. Taiwan > Singapore now, for some reason in my head. I hope it pushes through. Anyway, I still have a lot to do because packing is such a chore for me. ( Taiwan/Singapore will be in mid May, i'm just packing for another local trip) I can't seem to make up my mind as to what I should bring, etc. I keep trying stuff on, then I end up emptying the entire closet and leaving a mess. Goodluck Cheska! Stuff to look forward to during my free and easy summer break: - The Usual trip to the beach
- Holy Week / Easter Holiday
- Noob-ish Ice Skating
- Finishing my show
- Going to the newly opened Ocean Park
- Getting my red wrap dress
- Lunch/Dinner dates I promised my friends
Hmm.. I might add more to that list soon. Sooo that's that. If anyone here has time to kill, check out the video of the song I'm listening to. Here it Goes Again by Ok Go :) - Mood:bouncy
 - Music:here it goes again - ok go
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Guess what I have for today? It's a nifty page-rating thing! (that I stole from a friend's journal) I tried it on my two lj accounts, and I was seriously surprised to find out my rating is R. (as seen below)
Source: ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ozma914  This rating was determined based on the presence of the following words: cheskagolucky pain (5x) dead (4x) hell (3x) fags (2x) shit (1x) This rating was determined based on the presence of the following words: theanism dead (4x) hell (3x) slap (2x) drugs (1x) OMG. I only write about my daily life, and well, a few rants about stuff every now and then. I can't believe I got that. I even did a word check on my journal to see where I used "shit" (that's two now) because I never actually use the word. Apparently, it was the title of the song I was listening to. Just for the record, the stuff I write, angsty as it may seem, are just purely for humor. (I mean the sarcastic way I talk) I don't even cuss or anything. I'm really, really GP in real life. Haha. - Mood:surprised
 - Music:i can only hear the a/c humming
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How to make a person lose his/her appetite during dinner:
- Let a person who hasn't taken a bath for over 4 days sit at the table with him/her. Make sure some dirt is observed on said person's arm.
- Let an old family member openly announce that he has lost a tooth. (from biting something hard, and/or ..old age..)
- Let this said member who lost his tooth show everyone the gap the tooth left and have him proceed to the kitchen sink to barf out his dinner so he could retrieve the tooth he allegedly swallowed. (the sound of him trying to belch out all his food should be heard throughout the house)
Well, I usually lose my appetite when another person at the table chews with his/her mouth open, or makes a lot of noise. Last night was just a little extra ugh. Haha. =_=
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Completely pointless. I'm bored. Finals, finals, finals. Must be punctual. Well, I AM punctual.. Must not whine. Must not whine. Must not whine..... (wow, i didn't make a Valentine's post this year! nothing changed, don't worry.)
- Mood:energetic
 - Music:arigatou - the stand up
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Yes, it's a birthday gift of some sort because he didn't even know my birthday was coming up. We just happened to be talking, and it came to the Foo Fighters, and the songs I liked. Apparently, Everlong is his favorite song from the Foo Fighters too. So he told me he'd play it. (dedicated to me and all.) I just decided to consider it a birthday present. Oh and this is a first for me; to have an actual performance just for me. Here's the video guys. ( he's the one singing by the way) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RIbGBUjvfdQThanks Clark! Just for this, I won't bring a camera when " the dance" happens. :))) - Mood:giddy
 - Music:watching the video!
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I've been told that my intuitions are always on the dot. I wouldn't even be having "those" if something didn't trigger it. Now, the problem always lies with how I deal with it once I get the feeling. Do I accept it, shrug it off, or pretend I'm wrong? Well, I always hope for the best, and I don't want to expect the worst out of people. But what can I do when it's all repetitive, and so tiring? There it is again, the proof right smack in my face, and I'm still thinking twice about sending all my feelings away. Kah. Anyway, here's to the holidays! Let's all get drunk and be merry.
Something extra to change the mood. :]
While walking around during my breaks, I've seen a few mildly interesting signs in some of the uhh food carts by the road. Here's a couple of them: (I couldn't take pictures of the others since it came off as offensive-- chocolate moose!)
- Mood:irate
 - Music:the pretender - foo fighters
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If something works for you, great. When it stops working for you, when you’ve painted yourself into a corner and the only way out is to say, I’m sorry, I made a mistake, I wish we could compromise somehow, then do it.
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I went to class early this morning only to find out that my instructor wasn't coming. All my classes for the day were cancelled. My effort to get up that cold morning was wasted. Haha. The remaining hours of that day, I spent with an unexpected friend. It was fun and it distracted me from the fact that I'm classmates with an annoying pretentious know-it-all in all my major subjects. She seriously likes taking charge when she doesn't know a thing about the topic. I mean, yeah the initiative and all is nice, but it takes more than that to be productive. Sometimes it would be just nice to shut her up and actually correct her instead of waiting for the instructor to tell us what's wrong, but I'm not like that. Haha, I unfortunately have this knack of keeping my thoughts to myself lest I be labeled a rude girl. I'm only a smart alec around close friends whom I know won't think any less of me. They know I don't say things to be rude, it just comes out tactless because I say it as it is. I seriously don't dislike people, but I do comment on a lot of things they do that I dislike. See the difference? :D
Lately, I've been let down a lot, but I know I should hold my own. What I feel is not dependent on others but on how I see things. So, it all boils down to how I'll handle it. Go Cheska. Go, go. Plus I got a breath of fresh air the other day. It was unexpected, but it was there. It's one less baggage for me to carry now.
Anyway, as shown on my previous posts, I like watching Beauty and the Geek (yeah, I'm a very bored person). For the first season, the winners were a med student (Chuck Munyon) and a fashion student (Caitilin Stoller). Med student (functional neurology) for the win! (Chuck wasn't much of a geek, apart from being centered on his intellectual side. I mean, I expected the geeks on the show to be the stereotypical skinny weak people with acne, haha.) Since then, I've always checked the show's new seasons. I really liked what went between Jennylee and Nate of Season 3 (I liked Niel too, he got a perfect SAT score and his look was workable + he was willing to have a makeover-- none of that I-wanna-be-uniquely-weird crap). They weren't teamed up together (Jennylee was teamed with Niel, and Nate was with nasty-looking Cecille), but if you've seen that season, you'd know what happened. She actually fell for Nate. Aside from her being not shallow, she was also the best looking girl there (in my opinion). I just hope they get to continue where they left off. She's a UFC Ring Girl while Nate's the lead singer of a Star Wars Band. Haha, I guess being nice and funny can still work today. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. XD
Could anyone imagine if the geeks on the show were female and the supposed hotties were male? Jennylee already proved that women can't be all shallow-- what about men? We should put that to the test because women always have to go through the double-standard thing. Tsk men. :p - Mood:disillusioned
 - Music:but, honestly - foo fighters
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The other day I was so ready to give up on everything, seriously. Now I find myself a bit relieved, and sort of refreshed. I still have a few more problems though. I'm worried about my parents. First it was my mom, now it's my dad who had a mild stroke. Gawd, it's like they're having a race or something. I'm also worried about the amount of effort I put into something (yes, not naming it) that's about to be taken from me or ruined. It's just so unfair. Ownership > effort for progress? Oh well. The last one I'm gonna mention (but not necessarily the last problem I have) that's bothering me would be my current status with certain people. I'm hoping for the best, as always. It just comes to this; if you really want to be great, have the courage to fail big, and stick around. Make them wonder why you're still smiling. I'm currently wishing today would end a happy day because this day is really supposed to be a happy one for me.
On to school. Well, I'm just so happy that my dean is so patient with me. Lenient, even. I know I didn't perform up to par last semester, and I know I slacked around a bit, but he just encouraged me and asked for some chocolates for when I came back from break. I'm back now, but I forgot his chocolates. I AM SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF. Haha. He kept mentioning it while I was filling up my forms in his office awhile back. I'm seriously going to buy chocolates tomorrow and pretend I just forgot them at home today. Anyhow, I just got everything fixed now, and I didn't have to go through the hassle of going back and forth from the registrar to my dean's office or standing in long lines for whatever papers I need signed. I know it's unfair that my dean favors me in a way, but hey, I do my work well and I'm courteous. HAHAHA. Okay, please, just let me praise myself. He treats me like his secretary/assistant/errand girl, anyway. Well aside from that, I've been getting freaky text messages from one of my female professors lately. We hardly talk, but recently she's been sending stuff like "Good Morning Anna, if you still like me, please tell the dean to give one of your subjects to me." or "Hello, how are you? Where are you?" .. And the worst message I got was after I told her I'd try to ask the dean to give her one of my classes, and she went like "That would be great! See you, Love you." .. Kaaah. Creepy coming from someone I don't really talk to. (instructors at school call me by my first name, anna. cheska is taken from my second name, francesca. anna francesca! lol.) So tomorrow, I'm going back to fix my schedule. Oh and my dean told me not to entertain her and just ignore the texts, but I can't because she's still a prof, and not replying would be rude. :/
Here's another thought: You keep trying to break up with me and we're not even together. Wow, I've been having a lot of "thoughts" lately. The thing is, I just feel like a substitute. Have me around when you're sad over someone or something, then when you feel you can bear it again, you totally go back to your own life before the said "loneliness". It's always been like this. I know I have a static personality. People find me all that interesting at first, then the hype dies down as time goes on. Should I have more levels to me? Something that would keep people going on? Nah. I'm just consistently me. It's fine though. Well it's not, but I'm going to say it is because one way or another, I'm going to conquer it. Well, saying it is the first step actually. I really just want to be able to help people and feel useful if not needed. Haha. I just know that I'm impossible to forget but I'm hard to remember. Not going to hope for more. People say things without being able to commit to it. Virtues were easily said but not really shown in real life, and I should've known better. False hopes for the win! :)
Hi Cheng. (you're actually reading this?) By the way, to everyone who've noticed, I've finally kicked the habit of inserting "and stuff" after each thing I say.
- Mood:productive
 - Music:zen me ban - s.h.e
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The title would actually suffice to define this post, but I want to say more. It is a brainless read. :D
- Mood:scared
- Music:misery business - paramore
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Letting go is almost like when you just had your tooth removed by the dentist. You always run your tongue over the gap (consciously or unconsciously), because you feel there's an empty space that needs something in it. You might somehow miss having that gap filled, but you know you had to have it removed because it was causing you too much pain.
Just a nifty thought. :D - Mood:hot
 - Music:found out about you - gin blossoms
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Remember the cavies I wrote about in my earlier posts? Well, one of them died.. I seriously can't figure out why, since Shampoo was really okay that morning and showed no sign of being sick or unhappy. The others were also okay too. So it really can't be because she was sick or something. The only reason I can think of right now is the fact that she was too young to mate, or maybe.. I don't know. I'm just so sad. She died last September 9 at around 2:00am. Now Seravi is all lonely without her. I need to get a new female cavy but we can't bear the thought of replacing Shampoo. It's like how I feel eating in Teriyaki Boy is cheating on Kitaro Sushi. ( Yeah, I'm weird. ><) I need to buy a new female cavy, but it has to be not cuter than Shampoo. She and the others are already bigger than those in the pet store, so I'm really rethinking if I should mix in a new small fry with the bunch. They're all fat, furry, and fluffy now. Anyway, she was buried near the Kamias Tree behind the house on that same day at around 1:25pm. The rain made it even worse. :'( | |
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Well, here I am again. A lot has happened, and I really don’t know where to start. I’ll try to keep to the topic but I’m sure I’ll be sidetracked along the way. Long post is long, sorry. Long doesn't mean substantial though, haha. As Mr. Guan said, I AM a silly little girl. You've been warned. ;) First of all, Ryan, here’s the update you’ve been asking me for daily. It’s not the funny rant you’re expecting, but yeah, that’s that. Secondly, I had a haircut, had my hair curled ( properly, this time), had it dyed auburn, and got a new set of contacts ( my eyes are seriously not well, grade went up to 7.50/6.50). Haha, was bored with myself. Oh and the most recent news would be that I have the pink eye thing ( conjunctivitis). Got it 2 days ago. >< Soooo, I stopped writing here after I got the HP book, huh.. A lot has happened since then. ( I know I already said that in the first paragraph but yeah, boohoo, I needed to say it again.) Ah shoot, I think I’ve lost the will to rant. -_- 2 Weeks and 2 Days (August 19-September 4)The therapy I had lasted for 2 weeks and 2 days. It kept me sane through all the stuff I had to finish, and for all the things I felt bad about. Isolation is really not good for me. My therapy took care of that. Due to some ( unforeseen) circumstances, it had to stop. No more morning calls, and check ups. I’ll miss it though. Like a dear twin brother. I hope you find your happiness, and yeah, don’t be vain and go eat watermelons. Go go. I'm still hoping it would all be okay. :') MissedI missed Jaimie. ( She missed me first!) I guess since the term started, I’ve been so busy I couldn’t talk to her like before. The Man Whore II, now called the Hallmark Guy; even said my new nickname now was Little Miss Paperwork. ( it’s just our silly nickname-giving game) Back to Jaimie, we’re not related at all but I clicked with her like a sister of some sort, haha. Though sometimes my age is questioned ( by some people who don’t know me that much) because of my laid-back personality, I still see myself as her older sister. It’s nice that we get to talk from time to time, or just send messages about what annoys us. I have to thank her for trying to help me put an end to the threat of the social climbing poseur. Although the damage has been done and we can’t do a thing about it anymore, I’m still thankful she tried to help me. It made me feel better. Gah, what’s done is done. I’ve been used as the ladder-- but, never again. >:/ ( for the record, i missed checking my lj too) Who’s what?- Krist is inlove. Good for him. Krissy, I want you to remember, CAKE AND STEAK. Your favorite greasy sweet meal.
- JB, the drummer boy who thinks I write well enough to inspire; is joining me! Yay. :D
- Stepheeeeeeeen. Come. *whistle* :D
- My good ol' college professor went back here from New York and is treating his so-called favorites out. I'm one of em? :]
BirthdaysI’m lazy so I’m greeting everyone group style, haha. Happy birthday to the following: - July 23 – Dad (51), Kuya Jags (29): respect.
- August 21 – Robie (31)
- September 2 – Justin (23), Russel (23): I never got to thank him for his birthday bash last year. LOL
- September 3 – Bianca (22): Burgoo! Haha.
Rants
If you’re gonna say you’re a fan of something or someone, you’d better make sure you know their name ( as a minimum) lest you get embarrassed when someone who actually knows their stuff corrects you. It just comes off as poser-ish when you say you like them but don’t even know what they’re called. It’s just so annoying when someone you know, “ evolves” in a way and starts pretending to be some thing else. For example, you know how said person used to talk and whom this said person hung out with, but now this said person tries to act all classy or different, and well, I just don’t know how to put it. Said person now puts down other people who was like said person before. Don’t pose please, we all know you came from that. Atleast have the decency not to put your roots down. Haha. It just seems so off that said person now talks like me and people have noticed it too. Said person even claims to be a regular at our ( me and my friends) lounging around place. It’s just as my friends said, I gave said person a lot of material to copy, and now said person is using it on her new-found friends, and is now using me or my friends as the reference to said person’s “coolness” .. That’s not cool, haha. Said person didn’t even know what those stuff meant before, and certainly had no way of knowing those people. Nosebleed. It would be nice though if said person didn’t act as if everything came innately from, well, said person. Said person sometimes embarrasses me by making a big deal out of lame everyday things. Status giveaway, much? ( I seriously have to give said person a real nickname so I won’t have to repeat it over and over.) Annoying person is annoying. User. Only comes when there’s something to be gained ( like reputation), and is never there when actually needed. Everything is just for show. I should've seen this coming when I saw the first sign. -_- Notes
- Tan is such a common surname. Ryan Tan, Tavin Tan, Ernie Tan.. The list goes on. Roise is a common Singaporean name too. Oh and the English names they have.. Oh wait, what am I talking about?
- Snoozefest instructor resigned. (she found a lifetime partner who fortunately likes being bored to tears. grats!) I like going to that class now, I actually enjoy it.
- LOL, Bratz Movie? Another one placed under the Spy Kids/Shark Boy and Lava Girl movie category. Capital F aka epic fail.
- I like watching On the Lot. Reruns and all. <3
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Yay I have a copy of the 7th Harry Potter book (Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows) c/o Ryan II! Shall I be an ass and give spoilers? I have this nasty habit of checking out the last page even before I read the whole book. I know who lives! There's no tragedy, people. There'll be grandkids though. Okay, I'll stop. I've been so busy I couldn't even make a decent post but this was something I couldn't pass up. I needed to write about this. Oh and just to make it clear, I do love the Harry Potter series but I so hate the movies. Too many things left unexplained. Tsk tsk. I hate how the movies are made.. Oh well, atleast Draco Malfoy's actor is <3.
Note: I call him Ryan II since he's the second Ryan Tan I know. Ryan II, your name may be common, but you're still great! I'm totally sucking up to you in this post. Haha. I wonder what made him think I don't read the HP books?
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I will seriously stop procrastinating from now on. SERIOUSLY. This morning I was almost screwed ( and not in a good way) because I only finished 2 out of 4 reports, and my estimated time for each of them was kinda off. I miscalculated. I estimated an hour each, which is how long I usually do my easyass papers. This time it was harder. I also had to memorize 6 pages full of terms. One-liner terms. It's almost as bad as Taxonomy- which I so hated. Family, Class, Order, Suborder.... It kills me. Anyway, my first prof had a meeting so he said I should just meet with him tomorrow ( I finished his, argh!), and the other one-- well it was the first one I finished, so yay me. But the third and fourth one, omg. Thank God she ( my prof for that subject) was always in a hurry. She just told me to give it to her tomorrow at around 8am. LUCKY! While I was walking away from her office I couldn't help but laugh at how near I was at ruining my good record. Damn, my laziness! I will not underestimate my work anymore. Ugh. I'm so happy that I'm writing this instead of starting my paper. :) I must also stop snacking while procrastinating. Haha. I always makes excuses for me not to do my work. The other night, I baked chocolate crinkles, which I finished all by myself. ( No one else was around and I don't like leaving food around, so...) I didn't have any confectioner's sugar lying around, so my crinkles were naked. Just brown, no powdery stuff on top. Oh and I also made fudge brownies the night before that. They were supposed to be my study snack, but I just fell asleep after eating them ( while watching tv). Stephen said I always go on an eating binge. I so do not! Besides, this morning I wasn't able to eat breakfast at all. Blame it on the Tyra Banks Show featuring recovering meth addicts and their teeth. Sucked the appetite right out of me. Oh but it really was amazing how the makeover helped them and their self-esteem. They looked great after. Anyway, wish me luck, and more luck! I have to make up for being absent the other day. Sick, sick, sick. Current projects:- Earn for the Siberian Husky. <3<3<3
- Buy the cavies' new home.
- Plan the break vacation. (Ah yeah, my mind is on my next vacation. Cheska MUST concentrate. >:I)
About the song: I've never been a fan of Maroon 5 but I just keep hearing this song everywhere and now I've got it here. This guy friend of mine just mentioned this song before and now it reminds me of him. Haha, I even thought he had poor taste in music when he said he liked it. So now whenever I hear Maroon 5, I think of him. Hmm, did I just repeat what I said? ( beat's catchy though, "...'cause I don't believe in you anymore, anymore!") - Mood:predatory
 - Music:makes me wonder - maroon 5
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Normally, to keep the irritation I feel under control, I don't talk about it. I think about it, but I don't talk about it. That's because once I get started, it'll be hard for me to stop. I ramble about it, then I start shaking with irritation. Yeah, my hand shakes like I really, really, really, really wanna arrgh..! But anyway, Krist just triggered that right now. Way to force me to share! Haha. So let me just put it into writing. It sort of wanes when I do that.
OMG. GAMER GEEKS. OMG OMG. 18 HOURS A DAY. OMG OMG OMG. REMAINING HOURS ARE FOR TALKING ABOUT THE GAME AND/OR SLEEPING/EATING. OMG. COMMITTING TO A GAME? MAKING INSIDE JOKES ETC. DEVOTING TIME TO BE FUNNY IN THE GAME AND IN THE FORUMS. OMG. OMG. OMG. THE LITTLE ELITIST POSSE. NO OUTSIDERS. NO ONE'S GOOD ENOUGH UNLESS THEY'RE GAMER GEEK NO.1. ARGH. AND OMG THE CRAPPY MARKET-ISH EXPRESSIONS. AMF? WHAT THE HELL? I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE WHO SAY "LUFET" OR "AMF" OR WHATEVER. THEY'RE CURSE WORDS ALREADY, DON'T CHANGE EM! I CAN TAKE "ASA" SINCE IT REALLY IS A WORD, BUT AHHH, SO NOT COOL. AND GRAMMAR PLEASE. DON'T PREACH IF YOU CAN'T DO IT YOURSELF. YOU'RE NOT ANGSTY COOL. YOU'RE JUST POSER COOL TYRING TO SOUND LIKE SARCASTIC PEOPLE. NO NO NO IT'S WRONG. WHAT YOU SAY NEGATES THE WAY YOU ACT. IF YOUR OWN INSULTS COULD KILL, YOU'D BE DEAD BY NOW. THE LOT OF YOU. OMG. LOL IS AN ABBREVIATION OF SOMETHING, IT MEANS SOMETHING. DON'T ADD ANOTHER LETTER TO MAKE IT DIFFERENT. LOL IS NOT LOLZ. LOLZ IS LAUGHING OUT LOUD Z? YOUR IS DIFFERENT FROM YOU'RE! OH AND ACTUALLY GETTING A LIFE WOULD BE NICE RATHER THAN PRETENDING YOU'RE SOME KIND OF SOCIALITE PARTY PERSON WHEN EVERYONE KNOWS YOU'RE ONLINE FOR LIKE HALF THE DAY IF NOT THE WHOLE DAY PLAYING AND MAKING STUPIDASS COMMENTS AND EXPRESSIONS. I CAN'T STAND IT. ARGHHHHHH DON'T BELITTLE ME. I'M ONLY THERE FOR JUST ONE REASON. I DON'T EVEN LIKE BEING A STUPID NAMELESS FOLLOWER. AAAGHH. I AM WAY SMARTER. ALSO, "HAHA" AND "LOL" DON'T GO TOGETHER. IT'S LIKE LAUGHING OUT LOUD THEN SAYING "I HAHA'D TOO." STUFFINS! WAY TO WELCOME NEWCOMERS DUMBASSES, IGNORE THEM MORE. DON'T HELP THEM. THAT MAKES GOOD LEADERS. BE ELITISTS. GAMER GEEK ELITISTS? WE'LL WAIT FOR YOU IN THE REAL WORLD. LET'S SEE WHAT YOUR LEVEL CAN DO HERE. OMG, LET'S SEE ALL YOUR "COOLNESS" WHEN YOU'RE NOT INFRONT OF YOUR PC HIDING BEHIND SOME CHARACTER YOU WISH YOU COULD BE. THERE'S MORE TO LIFE THAN YOUR STUPID GAME. I GUESS 14$ A MONTH IS A SMALL PRICE TO PAY TO BECOME COOL AND TO GET TOGETHER WITH YOUR KIND. I'M SORRY I COULDN'T PERFECT THE UNPRODUCTIVE ZOMBIE INFRONT OF THE PC BIT. BLAME IT ON ME HAVING A LIFE AND ACTUALLY AIMING HIGH ENOUGH TO DO WHAT I DO. DON'T BE SO SMUG ABOUT BEING GOOD AT THAT GAME WHEN YOU FAIL IN REAL LIFE.
That may be like, you know-- really rant-ish with a bitter side-dish. I don't know. I just kind of feel better after saying that now. Oh and yeah, I have nothing against them. I kinda actually like some of them. It's just how some of them treat the game and how some of them act. (really stressing the word "some" not all) Eventually they'll go down since they seriously suck at being nice to new people. I do try to get along, which is why I'm trying to be like gamer geek no.1 in WoW, but yeah, I still don't like the bossy boss types and the elitist poser market-ish people. The only difference it has with pRO now is the fact that it's an international sever, it's more expensive, and it has better graphics. The people are almost the same. The pinoys, I mean. Annoying market-ish expressions and jokes coupled with posers with no life, ugh. So whenever they make jokes about pRO, it's like they're putting their own foot in their mouth. (I'm not defending pRO; it's sucky, but I'm just pointing out that they're all the same. I really just wanna say "YOU'RE ONE TO TALK!") Watch what you say, since it's just making you look stupid, people. Just because you're in a more expensive and popular game now, doesn't mean it's made you any better than those people who played pRO. (not unless you've magically changed the way you act/talk) Agh, this is me (not really a hardcore gamer) trying to play a game so I could relate to Justin and not be whine-y about him spending hours there. Hopefully he doesn't think it's about him, but I don't think he sees my lj anyway. I feel so much better now. Loads better. Just to make it clear, I'm not anti-gamers. It's just that some of them that I know, are being arrogant. :) - Mood:aggravated
- Music:me pounding on the keyboard
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Before anything else, I got the music part from ozma914. After reading his entry, I suddenly became conscious of the sound. :) Staying awake in the morning is really hard for me now. I have to get up at 5am just so I wouldn't be late for class, since I require roughly two hours just to get ready. ( It takes me a long time to move when it's early.) Then when I'm in class, finally awake, I get drowsy again. It's a snoozefest. Laboratory is from 8:30am - 2:00pm. The pace is too slow and we're left doing nothing for almost an hour-- but we're not allowed to rest at all. Our break is only for half an hour and I can hardly fit anything that'll wake me up in that packet of time. My instructor is young and I'm guessing, full of bitterness which is why she goes the extra mile just to be an exceedingly strict pain. ( There's a big difference between being a terror and being a pain.) Seriously, old instructors are nicer. The logic behind it is that young ones are just fresh graduates and are excited to use their authority to make students suffer the same hardship he/she imagined in his/her overly dramatic mind that he/she had. Oldies are nicer since they've gone past the young and angry phase, and are presently trying to atone for their sins by being absolutely spineless. Sometimes though, there are still those old bitter people who decide to be a pain forever. Haha, I know I'm not making sense right now, but it's not my fault. It's my zzzzz class. By the way, I'm spending my 30-minute break writing this. Hahaha. :D Now that I think about it, when I become a doctor and get my turn to instruct med students-- I'll be a pain too. "Rotten little arrogant kids (who're also stupid compared to me-- the graduate) thinking they're all that. When I was in their year I had to do this and that. Everything was harder.. blah blah blah.. mumbling and grumbling follows. " However, as I get older I'll mellow down and just think it's cute that they think they're going to have a happy and fulfilled future. Aww, I'm like a beacon of hope! :) - Mood:sleepy
 - Music:the a/c sucking money from my school's pocket
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" Ah! Behold the might of the unbending stubborness. He is no longer called a man since "stubborness" is more fitting. The vanity of stubborness won't even let it (him) bend to a "cherished's" request. Vanity comes before the cherished. Is the cherished really cherished?" My mentor ( I call him that since he's helped me through some of the most difficult times I've ever had.) once told me to let go of all the excess baggage I had so I'd be able to go on smoothly. Those that bring me down and do nothing to uplift me. Those that just suck out all the energy and positivity I have. I should start doing that again. Apparently the main source is still around and it has cleverly masked itself as good for awhile now. It's annoying me so much that it's become stressful. Currently cleansing myself of the contagious spite & immaturity while moving on. Well, moving on is a long process so I'm just gonna slowly detach myself from said negativities. I just have to keep in mind that some things are just not worth it and distractions will work wonders. :) Oh and Chris Benoit is gone. His family, too. News here. For those who don't know, he's a wrestler. :( - Mood:blah
 - Music:dead & bloated - stone temple pilots
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I think this was a bit too complimentary. But yeah, it's still nice that some people see something in me. Writing's not really my forte, I just like writing what I think. So whenever people say I write well, it really makes me feel good. No, I didn't post this here so I can say OMG I REALLY AM AWESOME! Haha. I just think it's great ---- and I don't really have anything interesting to say. ;)
| From: | (edited) | | Date: | Saturday, 23 June, 2007 5:19 AM | | Subject: | oh my god cheska | | Message: | how i love to copy everything you say. i hate whiners, people who spend the time complaining, when they should be meeting people, accomplishing goals, starting with new interests, going to new places, etc...
you're so right. people should shut up when you talk and take charge until they can prove they are better than you. you may not be physically skilled to handle the job, but you know exactly how it should be done.
you're so right. i can't say that enough. i have yet to find something to disagree with. i listen to you and i'm not like other people who are too intimidated not to listen but actually prepare for their stupid counter-comment/argument/approval just to prove they too can talk. omigod. i will want to wait until you say your last word and might not want you to stop.
i rarely find people like you, brilliant and truly eccentric, only because your goodness and genius stands out. that makes you refreshing. goodness and genius knock me out everytime.
i abhor proud, arrogant people. combine that with lesser intelligence, retardate mind - i go ballistic. unfortunately, they usually come in package.
i gravitate to people like you. intentionally. that's the way to be successful. design your crowd. rich people deal with rich people. broke and poor people get around poor, hunger-stricken people. hahaha. choose friends.
you amaze me everytime. |
| From: | (edited) | | Date: | Saturday, 23 June, 2007 4:57 AM | | Subject: | aquarius? | | Message: | really!! so that explains it. i'm an aquarian too!! that makes me officially like you, really. it's an honor to be anything like you. LORD OF THE CONVERSATION huh, cool. i'll have to find a way when to use that, there should be. haha
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These letters made my day. All these were written based on my past rants in my other journals (journal 1 & journal 2) and (I'm guessing) my profile here. What made me really happy was the fact that this was written by someone I look up to as authority, sort of. She's way smarter than I am, and well a bit older. She was ranked 2 in the recent (National) Nursing Licensure Examination, and she's already taken Med Tech before that. I bet she'd make a good doctor if she ever decided to be one. Oh wait, I don't need more competition. Haha. :) - Mood:happy
- Music:no rain - blind melon
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For the past few days, I haven't really been getting enough sleep. Not because I'm busy or anything, I just can't sleep. I also have trouble waking up/hearing my alarm. Ugh. Stupid lounging around and sleeping in all summer. My body wasn't given enough time to adjust. Also, there are things I keep thinking about. It's really hard when you don't know what you're holding on to; if it's sure or not, or if it really is real. *sigh* Maybe it's just the gloomy weather. (We're having the monsoon season right now.) Anyway, I think it would really help if I cleared my mind and just focused on what I have to do, and what I'm sure I have. Easier said than done, but yeah, fight! I don't wanna go sad and depressed again. There are a lot more reasons for me to be happy than just that one thing. (Although they're all connected.) Lame as it sounds, I cope by watching stupid shows. (Whenever my friends can't be dragged away from work.) Brainless shows kinda clear my mind and perk me up. And yeah, I love watching musicals, and my lameass Disney movies. Haha, classic.
What to do, what to do.. Writing about what I feel really helps me in a way. I get to vent without feeling all needy, and I still get the comfort of knowing that somehow, someone's gonna see it. All we need really, is someone we can share things with; someone who'd listen. :)
Globe Telecom just called me now and offered to send me a free sim card. Apparently, non-globe subscribers who send messages to their network are all recorded. They get the numbers and try to get them to switch networks. Haha, I guess I can put it on my extra phone. I tried playing Justin's World of Warcraft thing but yeah, I didn't like it since his guildmates don't talk to me, and it's like I dont exist if I'm not "super gamer geek no.1" when it comes to skills. If I'm not gonna carry his name with me when I play, why should I even bother? Haha. I really have poor vision (600 grade + 200 combination lenses + myopia, thanks to my brother tricking me to stare at the sun when we were kids), but I can't use glasses, thus I wear contact lenses. So this morning, I went outside, and saw my dog looking at me proudly. I was wondering why, when I saw what looked like a twig on the ground. Everything was blurry since I didn't have my contacts on yet, so I bent down and stared at it. My nose was almost touching it since I really needed to be close to see anything at all. I left it alone since I thought it was a leaf/stick thing, whatever. My dad went out and accidentally stepped on it. Apparently it was a dead rat. Eew.
Yeah. that's the most interesting thing that's happened to me lately. :) - Mood:tired
- Music:the book of love - peter gabriel
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